How To Trade Sorrow For Joy
The death of a marriage is similar to the death of a loved one. There is a grieving process. Sorrow and sadness invade people’s hearts, and if we are not careful we can fall into depression, and other emotional disorders.
When the disagreement that broke my marriage took place, I was on vacation 1,300 miles away from home; through text messages I received the horrible news that my husband was reluctant to continue our relationship. My heart was in pieces and I did not know how to alter the plans that I had already formed with my family so that I could come back home earlier than planned. It would be a long drive back alone with my three smaller children. I discussed this with my husband and he didn’t think it would be safe for me and our children to make the travel alone. Another fact to consider was the mental state that I was in at that moment caused by the grief I was experiencing, which would have made it dangerous for me to drive such long distance to return home.
The effects of the misery I was facing started to lurk into my soul, and tears were my daily bread. I was feeling disillusioned, and everyday I woke up to the harsh reality that my life had become a living nightmare. I missed the love of my husband, the conversations we used to have, and his touch. It became a daily event that around the time that my husband used to come home from work I would have an emotional breakdown. I was lost without him.
The day after my husband made clear that he had doubts about our marriage, The Lord began ministering to my life in a strong way while I was shopping for a birthday card for my father. I remember huge tears flooding my eyes while browsing the display for the perfect birthday card. Little did I know that The Lord would comfort me with a verse of scripture inscribed on the card I decided to buy. The verse is found in Jeremiah 29:11. Amazingly that verse of scripture shaped my live differently, and changed my destiny. It appeared as if a door to the spiritual realm had opened and let the mercy and love of God flow in.
The Lord literally was with me through all the pain and sorrow caused by my broken marriage. God gave me understanding when He instructed me saying that “I would win this battle on my knees” through prayer, and that I needed to “study His Word” and use scripture to fight. He made me understand that the fight was not against “flesh and blood”, and that my husband was not my enemy, neither was the other woman.
At the end of my vacation, my one year old daughter fell ill and we were forced to spend five days at a local hospital in Tampa, FL I spent those five days close the Lord while He spoke to my spirit constantly. As weird as it may sound God gave me messages even through the movies that were playing on the TV that was in the room to serve as my daughter’s entertainment.
Slowly, with patience God started filing every moment of my life, and became the center of my universe. The God that I had known since I was four years old, and had healed me from Meningitis suddenly became more real, and closer than ever before. Through the reading of God’s Word, worship, and prayer The Lord turned my tears of sadness into tears of joy.
Some days were better than others, but there is no doubt that The Lord was guiding me through every situation, and teaching me how to live differently. The eyes of my heart had opened to a different dimension. Happiness and joy were attainable once more even when the circumstances in my marriage seemed bleak, hopeless, and just plain dead.
As a fawn that is learning to walk, I started on my path towards marriage healing, and restoration. I stumbled sometimes, while learning to stay balanced and not being led by my emotions and feelings, but being led by the Word of God instead. I had recovered the hope, and joy in my life. I was expecting a miracle that would revive my marriage, and release my husband from the tight hold that the enemy had him subject to. I conclude that through this experience, and with God’s wisdom and revelation I acquired freedom to really love, and to find joy in the middle of sorrow.
If you want to know more about how to live joyfully, even in the middle of the storms that life sends your way, the Day of Love program can guide you there while God heals and restores your soul.